So the worst part about nightshift is the waiting. The latest I can stay awake without motivation is 5am. So I wake up at 1pm and five hours of standing around before I leave for work. That is the sweet spot. The cant do anything but think about how I hafta work. I grabbed a college calendar and I have begun seriously considering my options. Really thinking about school is what gets me through the reality of my daily life. Working at a sawmill is dangerous beyond the whirling blades. The dust in the air chokes the noise deafens and the vibrations cause muscle stiffness and pain. Never mind the million other hazards. B1Alpha recomends I take up dentistry. Thats a good idea but if I lose the use of any part of my body I wont be a dentist anymore. Thats not the only reason I dont wanna be one. I went to the dentist this week and had my first cleaning session in nearly ten years. Sure it can be scary sitting in a chair with some sadistic bitch cramming her fingers down your throat and taking power drills and Ice picks to your skull. I have a problem with the noise where I work and I can hear a power drill echo in my brain for hours after its gone. So yeah I have two more cavities that need filling and I set the appointment up back to back. I think I will opt for the Nitrous Oxide even though I dont like wallbangers or losing my consciousness. But there is only so much trauma I can face. Im worried about things like what might happen while im sleeping and totaly dependant on strangers for my very survival. What if I start choking while under Nitrous? What If I wet my pants or something else totaly stupid? What if the dentists decide to take pictures of my wang? I dunno these scenarios keep running through my head keeping the trauma of needles and drills in check. Its a flip a coin situation. No sirs I do not want to be the Master Torturer. I was thinking of taking Law in College, Safe boring and secure.